I’m done with all this fucking bullshit people put me though.
I wish I had a friend. Someone that was there for me whenever I needed them and would understand me. I just want to hurt myself and none of my friends are here for me. Not even my boyfriend. I hate myself.
Well I know I’m already going to have a bad day. Get woken up by my mom yelling at me. Then continues to yell when I’m in the bathroom. Ah I love my life.
Just bought a case for my Samsung Galaxy S3 I will be getting on Friday. I am so excited to finally get rid of my HTC Merge…worst phone I’ve ever picked out. Well at least I only had it for less than 1 year. School is just stressing me out lately. I’m excited for second semester to start. I know it will be stressful with my AP classes, but it will be worth it. I’m excited to go to Oshkosh Wednesday night with Aaron and my family to go to my brother’s event he organized. I know it will be fun even if it’s just for a night. I’m excited for Winter Carnival. I also can’t wait for Oshkosh in the fall. Just looking in my rear view mirror everyday and seeing the UW Oshkosh sticker on my car makes me look forward to it more and more. I am so excited for so many events! :)
I have a perfect boyfriend. He rubs my feet whenever I ask him to, he is with me everyday, he always wants to see me, he stays up till late hours of the night when I’m upset, he can always make me laugh, he is never mean to me, can always make me smile, won’t get mad at me..but just try to make me feel better if I do something stupid, treats me like a princess everyday, and so much more. But the most amazing thing he does is that he loves me for who I am. And I couldn’t ask for anything more. I am so blessed to be with my boyfriend.
Horrible Christmas.
I miss the past ones where I would spend it with my loved ones and no drama was brought upon anyone. I just wanted you to be there with me today and more of yesterday, but that didn’t happen. You can’t always be a mama’s boy. I’m tired of these bullshit games where you can’t decide who to hang out with. If it is going to be that big of a deal she can spend every single fucking second with you. I’m done trying to make an effort to hang out with you. For once I want to be put first in someones life. My family doesn’t care about me so it would be nice for at least someone to care. :(
Doesn’t feel like Christmas.
I guess the misunderstand tonight between you and I messed it up. It just really sucked how things didn’t go the way they were planned and how you basically didn’t come to the party with me right away. Made it pretty awkward too. You made me seem like a fool. I guess I’m just still upset. I wan’t to sleep, but I probably won’t get much. :/
I’m thankful.
I’m thankful for my family, my friends(even though I don’t have very many), my boyfriend, everything my parents provide me, my Shopko “family”, and even for the people that I was so blessed to have in my life and left me with so many amazing memories. Happy Thanksgiving everyone. :)
5 hours of sleep tonight.
This will be the only sleep I will be getting till Friday night.
Why the fuck do I work a double shift on Thanksgiving night/Black Friday? 13 Fucking hours?! I’m 17, in school, and want to enjoy my break..Why the hell do I have to work in retail and have that damn store open at 9pm Thanksgiving night? I thought thanksgiving was a holiday to celebrate what we are thankful for..not to spend it shopping and throwing a fit about getting an item.
